Childhood "Crush"

This story dates back to those days, when I used to be a school going girl. I was in the age when Crush occurred every now and then and love was totally out of my syllabus. As a teenager, I spent most of the time day dreaming about my crush. I was in 9th standard and so was he. His name is " Ranbir". He was my classmate. Tall, fair complexed and handsome. His cubby cheeks made him the cutest boy in the class. His brown eyes, so deep and intense, whenever I looked into them I got drowned, it felt as if they spoke to me in some unknown tongue. He was good in academics and sports. Internet connection was very rare those days, smart phones didn't exist and most of us did not have personal phones. Therefore stalking on social media was a castle in air. School was the only place where I could stalk him. 

Having a crush can be super thrilling and ridiculously nerve-wracking at the same time. You spend half your time wondering if that person actually likes you and the other half wondering if you had played it sufficiently cool around them.

When we were at school, I could never muster the courage to speak to him. Each time I thought of speaking, my voice stammered badly . When he walked by me, my heart began racing in an abnormal pace ,my eyes couldn't dodge it's gaze. Wherever he was around me I smiled idiotically and acted absurdly. I always made it a point to be near him even if I were not talking to him. I don't know if he noticed or not but I acted more enthusiastically in his presence. I kept staring at him for no reason and sometimes got embarrassed too as he caught me doing so. He made me believe " life is Full of awkward moments ". 

There are many such memories and awkward moments associated with my crush but this one was the most memorable one. Even today when I recall my crush, I smile idiotically at myself. Having a crush is sometimes much more better than being in love because here there is no expectations. Little things give huge happiness. There are no expectations hence no regret. There is a wierd joy in having a crush. And anyone who has a crush will relate to my sayings☺.