Mediocrity

At 20, when people around me ask what I wish to do or hit me with "what are your plans?" I become numb. Cause for years I have been treating myself as a mediocre person at every aspect of life and mediocrity leads nowhere. I was always the person who was almost there but never the one who actually reached. People around me never left a chance to prove me mediocre. I have been accepting the tag so much so that now I don't wait for people to tell me that these things aren't for me. I exactly know how to distance myself from things once I believed I could do.