Lost Without You...

We met for the first time when we were in 8th class and amongst everyone, she was the only one different for me because her eyes and hair took my attention but don't know why ??? Then slowly we started talking but honestly, her attitude was one level up. Soon we stopped talking to each other don't know why but then I realized that there is something that is trying to pair us though we hated each other at another level. During my whole academic year, I badly ignored her though she tried to interact with me. The next year 9th class and I slowly started to interact with her and it was going smoothly then I proposed her, she smiled and asked for some time and that "some time" became "never". But till now I don't know who it was because of whom we never talked to each other for the whole academic year. And then the 10th class #BOARDS# this time I was clear with my intentions to sort out the matter. But the past two years was so depressing for me as well as for her. She totally ignored me like I was no more I was mad behind her but she was totally changed. I was seriously thinking of what I had done to myself as I DRUNK FOR THE FIRST TIME TO ERASE HER MEMORIES BUT WAS GETTING MORE EMOTIONAL. That day I slept on my friend's terrace and the next morning I realized that for a girl I was going to hurt my parents if they would have got to know about the last night. And would you believe a boy of 10th drunk for a girl being a junior #DEVDAS#? For my boards only one month was left and you would not believe I did not study a single day and also before the exam. I went, sat wrote the exam and passed with ( 72% ). After two months of boards I got a message from her she confessed her love but it was her EGO which came in between and she for the last time texted me that "SORRY AND GOODBYE BUT I AM BLOCKING U " After that she blocked my number and ME. After two weeks my 11th started, went sat quietly focused on studies but one day saw a girl, cute pretty beautiful and innocent. I had a crush on her but soon I started thinking that are my feelings for her is 💯 . Will I be able to forgot my first love ??? A BIG QUESTION MARK STILL. ?? ?? ??