Life

For a moment, forget who you are. More importantly, leave behind who we are and just empty out everything. Instead, just be 'me'.

"I never wanted anything from life."

If I say those words, I would be lying. In fact, that would be the biggest lie of my life. I wanted, I always wanted. I just could never bring the words out. My voice failing, my heartbreaking and my soul-shattering. But, what do I really want in life? I don't know yet. So I will tell you everything I wanted and still wants. Today I will be true; true to you; and most importantly, true to myself.

I....I...I want to live.

Yes. Not one but many lives in a single lifetime. I want to write about myself and everyone I ever met. To capture the essence of what it is to live. To be able to read everything beautiful and painful ever written and appreciate the experiences captured. All of this hoping to inspire and be inspired.

I want to learn and to teach. Yes, both, because I have had life-defining encounters that need to be shared and understood. Even so, I still have life-changing encounters, lessons to learn.

I want to give away everything I have. Yes, I want that and I want to begin again. To remind myself, what it means to start over, to be back at the beginning of one's life.

I want to be single, yet attached. Alone, yet accompanied. I want everything and nothing, all at once! The little and the bigger things, I want them all.

 I want death to want me. He cannot take me. I want him to come when I have exhausted these lives I want to live and become! I want him to desire the enriched soul I will be! I want it all; slowly, gradually, definitely. 

But is this all possible? Can one person be all these things in a single lifetime? I don't know yet, but I certainly want to know.