Glass Walls

After a full packed week with work, me and my husband Jatin, would dine out together on friday nights. And the weekend would follow on lazily in bed, sleeping for hours, watching tv, net and so on.

But it was for the first time in our marriage that Jatin was traveling out for a week, I was alone.

Friday approached and I was not excited about the weekend. Jatin insisted me hard to go and dine out alone. But to me, his plan sounded awkward.

I wondered what people would think about me, while everyone has someone on the other side of the table, I would be all with my food and random thoughts. Lonely to be stated by all.

After giving it much thought, I headed in.

Ordered mint tea and pav bhaji. While sipping my tea, I started to look around, being highly conscious. And to my surprise, I was not the one alone eating silently. But on every table the people are alone, hiding behind their mobile screens. Simply scrolling down the screen with every bite.

A young couple was only interested in taking selfies around, while a girls gang were checking some shopping site.

A family sitting next to me had a kid, and while his mother stuffed food in his mouth, he was busy in watching mobile.

Her husband was busy talking to someone. I just wondered, was she the alone one or me.

But I dont want to be judgemental after all.

And By the time I finished my pav bhaji, I got a confidence that no one in a room full of people was noticing me, except my waiter to clean the table and get off with the waiting que.

While walking back to Appartement, I realized how badly are we lonely despite people around. The annoying sounds of traffic have made us deaf to hear our own sound. Before sharing the happiness verbally we like to post it on media from our travels to our restaurants, mall check and how I feel today. Everything is on the public forum to be acknowledged by others.

Our popularity is no more based on the number of likes and followers.

Seriously the imaginary glass walls built by us are strong enough to make each one lonely inside, as we can only see others but can't hear them or feel them.