Fate

April 15, 1885

"It's hard to forget someone accidentally came into your life. But it's hard to accept someone in your life the one whom you never thought you love. Worse, It's hard to forgive yourself for unintentionally hurting your love for the sake of safety."

"Do you know what is this pen? It's G-Tec, simple pen I need in my life."

"Don't care. Do you know what is this?"

"Of course I do!" you shouted at me "That's my picture!"

"Annoying girl ... fat.... ugly....moody....piety...fl--"

"Shut up! You're insulting me again, don't you? You jerk!" 

I know what you're going to say this. I'm enjoying watching pissed you off.

"Ha! As if you're handsome you dragoonnnnn!!"

"You witch hahaha!"

I know I hurt you again. I keep insulting you so you can hate me.

"I hate you"

'I love you' what I wanted to say, but

"The feeling is mutual"

"I hate you for insulting me every day! I hate you for... for keeping me like nothing! Not worth it! I hate you for expressing that I am trash! I hate you for telling me that I'm outshined! I hate you for telling me that I'm the storm that destroys life! I hate you for that small thought of yours, that keeps breaking my heart!"

You leave. I don't deserve you, I don't deserve a girl like you.and you don't deserve me too

"I never thought that your flaws, become my art. My comrade, my señorita. I'm sorry"

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June 22, 1890

"The most awful thing in this world is that,... Love has no rule, love has no limitation. And worst, love can unlock in someone's pocket, in someone's mind, in someone's heart, but the one you love can't lockout of your mind. The feeling was still here, but the person whom you express your feelings left."

"It's been a year since you left. I didn't know that you leave, all I know is that you only hate me.

Maybe I deserve this. No, I really deserve this."

Fate can be good and bad. It chooses to stay from pain, happiness or maybe forever in pain.

And I? I choose to wait, it doesn't matter when you came back, do you still want to come back? It doesn't matter, I still wait. The ink I spent, the papers I used, the love I express, still, you are the muse of my life.

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August 31, 1892

"Sebastian.."

I slowly look at my right side. There you are, my right woman. Heart, please stop beating fast.

"Leanna?..."

I smiled, you've changed a lot. It's been a year señorita

"You're the leader of Jedgu Alliance Organization, don't you?"

"Leanna..."

I knew it. This day will come

..on how the accident ruins our first day of the snow season, our favorite season.

I hold your arms while trembling, watching you crying, silently pleading.

"If it's the only thing for you to make at ease, do it. I'm glad I can die in your arms"

I keep thinking it was an accident, I believe it was an accident you pull the trigger...

"My señorita.."

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Girl's Pov

Trembling hands, pounding heart. I didn't know what to do anymore. I kill the man who becomes my brother, my father, my friend, my everything.

"My señorita"

I cried. His voice echoed in my ears to my heart, I roamed in his writing room until I see the little box.

I'm sorry Sebastian, my guilt consumes me.

From: Sebastian

To: Leanna

I open the box and see his pocket time and a letter

My señorita,

Maybe right now, you're at peace. I will never forget every memory I have with you, even in the next life of ours, I will find you. I will remember you, my heart always remembers about how we became comrades, on how everyone lends their ear to our stories and rants, on how they keep their eyes on our so-called cat-dog stories.

In another life, it doesn't matter when, where, and how. All I want is, when I live again, I always choose to be with you

Mi amore señorita   

I shouted I shouted the pain! I shouted everything until the pain fades.