Evil Beneath You

Today when I was asleep I faced the biggest fears of my life. It was like something inside of me that was enlarging my fears. I was feeling like I'm trapped somewhere and anything good can't happen there. I was trapped inside my own grief. 

It was all of the things. All the stuff in which I failed came across me in that dreamland. I saw I was In my college in my class but the person I cared most is ignoring me, they didn't even recognize me as I never existed there. This is one of my biggest fear "to be barred by the friends of mine". This one dream made me more vulnerable to the fact that I am not the choice in anyone's friend list, I'm the bloody damn option they use when they need it. I remember these lines once said by someone: "it doesn't matter how evil you are, there is always a greater evil around you".

Death is dancing in everyone's shadow, then why we should give a damn about her? Today in the dream I saw myself getting died. It was like I'm in the possession of something.  It was surely a dark entity drawing from my one life force, feeding by the evil lies beneath me. The good inside me can't stop it nor I can move my own body. I was stuck in a loophole till eternity, people can't see the good inside you nor they try to see because the evil inside you makes them fear from you. Only you know the thing outside taking your body, voice is not you. It's something that is born from your grief, your agony. It's called a necessary evil, sometimes to save yourself you have to be the greatest evil, you can't even imagine yourself.