Euphoria In The Crepuscule

 

And she cried...Cried all night long thinking about the days when she uses to be with him. She swept the tears from her face, stood up from the side of her bed where she was crying since the last two hours.

She picked the keys of the car and drove it to the place where they use to talk whole day. She parked the car, picked some cigarettes and sat at the top of the terrace. As the wind swept through her hair she closed her eyes and a kaleidoscope of memories passed away!
And the trail of the memories paused at one moment. She heard voices in her head...

He said –

“Baby.... Are you okay? You're not talking today!"

She said -

"Are you sure that this is going to be forever? Like we're together from the last 3 years and I'm so much into you that there's no word in this whole world to define how much I love you.

And I guess I'm expecting a lot from you. I'm falling so deeply and madly for you that sometimes it scares me to even pass an hour without you. I'm falling hopelessly for you, I'm so dependent on you, my mind is so much beleaguered by your thoughts that it can't think of anything but us; every single thing in the world reminds me of you, everything is related to you, I fear what will happen if we don;t end up together."

He said –

"Baby, I know you love me so much and I vow that we're going to be together forever. I'm sorry if because of me you felt that I'm not into you like the way you are but I do love you in the same way... truly and madly from my whole soul.

You know... I never said it but we have been together for 3 years and my love never faded, in fact, it kept on increasing each and every day.

I'm sorry I didn't tell you how beautiful you are and how pure this feeling is. I never thanked you for whatever you did for me, I never thanked you for those infinite memories you gave me, I never told you that you look so cute when you're sleeping and your weird faces were never weird at all, in fact, they are the cutest. And I love the way you flick your hair, the way that you touch me and the way that you say you love me, the way you kiss me every time when you leave, the way you hold my hands when you know I'm going to leave, the way you spe

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ak your heart out and the way you cry like a baby and what not!

I don't have words to explain what all you did for me...

I m sorry that I never explained what I feel and how much I love you. But baby one thing in this whole universe will be constant...

I will love you forever, doesn't matter where I am, what I m doing, I think about you all the time, my soul is no more different from you... So how can I ever stop thinking about myself, how can I stop loving myself?

How can I breathe without taking you inside when you're the air I live in?"

*Back from the flashes*

With the memory of their last meet,

 “You said you never will leave me and will never let me go through any pain alone and how can you stop loving me, your soul was not different than me, right? Why now the definition of the forever got changed now? Where all your promise lies now?”

“I am sorry,” as tears roll down his cheeks “I know I promised you a lot of the things but now the things are different and the distance between us is going to be a very major factor, I know love has nothing to do with the distance but in the real life it does! I love you and nothing can change this fact but the miles between us are weakening the relationship day by day... I am not able to give you the love that you deserve and the time that I should give you, I am not there with you now, to see if you are sleeping on time or not, if you had a bad dream, I am not there to sing a lullaby till you sleep, I am not there to see if you’re happy or not, I am not able to listen how your day ends and I am not there to hold your hand when someone stand against you, I am nowhere now. Distance destroys the relationship when we can’t manage the time for each other. I know I don’t call you much now, neither we chat on text, I know that I am not following my own words but trust me, love... you’re still my life and I can’t just destroy the one for my cause when I know that you deserve way better.”

 

Tears filled her eyes. With the last puff... empty cigarette box, and sleeping pills in her hand....everything started fading, with just one thought in her mind,

“I will love you forever, to the very end of the universe and back... with no exception! And with my entire bit, all of my heart and all of me. Just one wish of mine is if I could see your face right now and if you could fulfil your promises and if I could see you smiling with me forever.” 

To relive those moments with him was her last wish.