Day 3 of 21 - Self Quarantined

27 March 2020

Dear Diary,

Day by day I am losing my patience, there is a cold war going on in my mind and heart. This morning was a tough one, I was feeling drowsy, did not feel like working, had a little cough and fever. Somehow I managed to leave my bed. Did my usual activities but today without any music. I was doing everything like a duty without any interest involved. It's just the 3rd day of my self-isolation but I feel as though it's been like months. As I stay alone, passing time is really getting worse. I think now I am done looking myself at the mirror, now I want to see other faces. With a sad heart, I realised I can't go out because it not safe out there. I simply sat and logged in to my laptop, looked at my mails while having my breakfast.

After finishing couple of work, I started feeling very tired and had no mood to cook anything. I decided to order myself something to eat. Thankfully the Zomato services are ongoing. I ordered myself a nice meal and waited for the zomato delivery boy to arrive. After having my lunch, I still did not feel better, so I started searching for Paracetamol tablets. I am basically a person who never take medicines. I somehow got a single tablet in my wardrobe, so I had it. Now, look at the irony, it's a complete lockdown and I am unwell and there isn't any medicine at home. I would probably try to go and get some tomorrow. 

After taking the medicine, I fell asleep on my laptop. I was in a deep sleep and suddenly I felt sweaty and got up. I looked into my laptop and it was 4 o'clock in the evening. I drank some hot water and switched on the fan. Within minutes I started feeling cold and switched off the fan. This sudden change in my body made me scared, probably because of so many forwards in WhatsApp. I called my friends and had a little cit chat to deviate my mind. I also tried holding my breath for 10 seconds, because I came to know that if you are able to hold your breath for more then 10 seconds, then you are not suffering from Corona and your respiratory system is fine. Thankfully, I was able to hold it for 15-20 seconds. But as a human we are never satisfied for whatever reason, so I googled about COVID-19 symptoms. So here I landed on a search result from which I tried to compare my symptoms. As per my comparison, everything looked fine but still my mind was not in rest. There was a "what if" going on into my mind and on the other hand my heart was saying "No Arti no, you don't need to worry, its nothing but tiredness." The world is fighting out there with Corona and here I am fighting with my Head and Heart.

To deviate from my mind, I cooked a good dinner for myself. While having dinner, I decided to watch "Maska" released on Netflix today. It was fun watching and eating. 

Well, with this I end my day. I pray to god that this should end soon, until then please be safe and don't let your mind rule your body.

Good night!