A Tangle Warmth Of Love

I met him at a point when I was desperately lonely and apathy with my life. I still remember the day which has made me write this story now. It was Jan 14th, 2015, 2:57pm Sankranti everyone in my family was busy with the festive mood but as usual, I was with my phone. Then for the first time I got a beep from my phone, it was a message from ”ROHITH: hey sanya……happy Pongal”. This single message has changed my life completely.

Basically in movies, we hear a lot about love like it has 3 stages. If anyone asks me I will obviously say its 100% true. Because my love has started in these 3 stages of process only. Now we are in the 1st stage i.e “teasing stage” we both used to tease each other like no one else but as the days were passed he became essential in my daily chores. So many friends teased me, ROHITH also teased me but I want only “ him” to tease me. Finally it was semester time, end of our 3rd year, not only semester but also for my hostel life. I was very stubborn about my carrier by that time so I thought of vacating the hostel and to join in a CAT course in PUNE. That day if I couldn’t take this decision I would have been terrible perdition throughout my life.

Exams were over. I had vacated the hostel and somewhat missed my friends, night outs, group dances, late night birthday parties, late goings to food, harangue speeches by our warden. I was lugubrious at one side but feeling very anxious for starting my new life in PUNE. Yes it was a new life to me thanks to PUNE you have introduced me the most important person. Now i'm completely a free bird. I was joined into coaching and the class timings were from 5 to 8 pm, I had engaged with the project at that time only. So I was supposed to go to college in the morning for the project and to attend the classes in the evening. Exactly at that time, ROHITH was also doing his project in the college. It was one of the college prestigious projects. He and his team even stays at night in the college for the work. All the situations were very supportive for us.

It was the time for the second stage “friendship stage”. I had become very close to him, I used to chat with him till the late nights. Whenever I was out of my class, immediately I used to call him. I always loved to hear his voice, there is something magic in his voice, whenever I call him I don’t want to hang my phone. However, I was not sure about exactly what was this feeling???. Basically I heard from elders that “marriages are made in heaven”, now I have a belief in this something as true. These situations are the paragon of God's drama. Even ROHITH also never put me in a distance. All these made me think about him more and more.

For the first time, I and ROHITH travelled to college on the bus. That day when I sat behind him I didn’t feel anything but I was very tensed if anyone sees me with him what would I tell others. Even before I used to talk to my classmates but never been nervous. But why am I thinking all these? He is also a friend to u right this is what my brain is telling, but my heart is feeling thrilled, warm, fuzzy. In the meanwhile my birthday has come, it was June 27th. Exactly 1 month before the beginning of my love. I invited him to my party but he said he has a gate class. But I want him to be apart of my party. It was 26th night he was chatting with me continuously even wishing me for every half n hour, just before 12 he said that he is going to sleep but I want to listen to my first birthday wishes from him. It was 12 O" clock yes he has called to me. I was excited and very happy. As the Days were passing im getting close to him day by day. At first, I used to chat with him up to 10 pm, but now its 1pm. Whenever I open my WhatsApp the very first name is ROHITH.

One day I didn’t go to college on that day even ROHITH also didn’t go because he has some work regarding his project. So he went to Autonagar to buy something it was 12 o” clock, a very sunny day may be the temperature is around 35*c. he didn’t found the shop exactly. So I m trying to search the place in online. I found 3 places and I texted him, it was the first time he utters a word to me because I'm making him irritated. So I felt sorry for him even I was angry at one end and I didn’t msg him till the evening. But on that day I checked my mobile for every one hour then in evening I got a message from him. At that point my heart jumps with the joy, but my brain is warning “ are you gonna mad or what?? If he messages you what is the thing in that??, why are you going crazy about him, be in your limits heart. He is just a friend to you” so my heart was afraid of the brain and stayed calm. He said sorry then my heart melts like ice cream.

Days are passing. I am completely addicted to him. My inbox, my call logs are filling with his msgs only. The people whomsoever I had chated were also now no more. This day is the last day of CRT classes in the college. ROHITH is also going to Chennai the next day. I want to see him because he was injured. It was 4 pm everyone were leaving college even I too. but I don’t wanna go home without seeing him. My legs are stepping ahead but my heart drawing me back. I have taken my phone from the bag my fingers are going onto ROHITH name but my brain is pulling them back so I put my phone into the bag again. I was in a quandary whether to call him or to go home. I looked around, everyone is rushing out. I closed my eyes then the only thing that I have to listen is ROHITH voice.

Then all in a sudden I have taken my phone and called him he told me to wait in the canteen. I was jumped out of joy and my heart starts dancing like anything, even the echoes of air are like a playing piano. I walked fastly just like I'm missing my train, but suddenly when I went over there I have seen some of my friends so I went to them and acted as I came there to borrow notes from them. Even though I am talking to them still I am thinking about ROHITH only, suddenly one of my friends called ROHITH and told him that she is waiting for him and asked him to come fast even he also says that he is coming. At that moment my eyes got wet, my heart is shouting interior, I got very angry on ROHITH why did he ask me to come if he wanna meet another girl. Automatically I standup and even without saying bye to anyone I vacated that place immediately. until now I never think about my relationship with him but on that day I questioned myself why should I wait for him? Why should I call him? Why should I cut off all my friends? Why should I check my mobile for his msgs? All these questions made me numb, not even finding a single answer to my questions. So I decided to avoid him. But from now the third stage being started i.e “possessive stage”

ROHITH has started to Chennai. I was a little bit worried about him. Even though I decided to avoid him but I can't stay without messaging. Even he is on the tour also he used to chat with me, talk to me late nights. I don’t know what is happening in between us I can understand that I like him but its not only liking even more than that. But every time I want to take him to the heart but the only question is maybe he is of that friendly nature, maybe I'm taking him in the wrong way. So again I was stuck with a numb expression. Next day I decided to avoid him completely because I know I'm getting mad of him. So I told him that I'm preparing for an exam so I wouldn’t use the net for some days. I didn’t chat with him for the two days not even a call after that day when I refreshing my contacts I saw “ HAPPINESS IS WHEN THE LAST SEEN IS TURNED INTO SEEN AND THE SEEN IS TO TYPING…….” Guess whose status is ???? exactly it is ROHITH status for the very 1st second I thought this is the answer for all of my questions.

But for the next minute another question popped up in my mind may be this status is for any other girl. So I became quiet and it was the end of July he is back to PUNE. I wanna see him but how can I convey my feeling to him? Yes, I got an idea my dad's birthday is coming soon, so that I can ask ROHITH to come with me for selecting my dad's gift. That day I went to college but this time my mind also compromised with the heart so it is also thinking about ROHITH. I got down the bus and waiting for him in the central. I have seen him so many times in the past but at that moment when I saw his fair face, his hard piercing eyes, his dark eyes and his crooked smile that made me yearn.

It was 26th July the worst day in Indian history, a great legend Dr. Abdul Kalam has died due to heartstroke. Everyone was shocked, no one is ready to digest this news. That night got a message from college everyone should wear white dresses to the college like every day on the 27th also I got ready for the college suddenly got the news, college has been declared a holiday on the account of Sir Dr. Abdul kalam death. This day how can I describe? A very special day for me, if I wouldn’t have this day in my life I don’t have a value today. My family, I are very thankful to the god for this day. Now I will tell you what exactly happened on this day. It was 9 am me and ROHITH were chatting about going out for a movie. It is Bahuballi week. Finally we got tickets for the noon show.

In the meanwhile he gave me a treat in the café coffe day. I talked to him so many times, we both travelled also but on that day I felt so shy in front of him, whenever he is beside me my heart starts jumping. We both went into the café sat opposite to each other but I want to sat beside him. Our order has come to his coffee and my ice cream. I want to put a spoon of ice cream to him and want to drink a sip of coffee from his glass. I know he also likes me but we both are acting just like friends. Café is empty, we sat near a corner, romantic music is playing maybe this is called a perfect date. Yes it would be if we had both know exactly what is the name of our relation. I want to look into his eyes by holding his hand and to say ‘ I LOVE U’ but it was not at all happened. He started talking a video of mine but I want to take a selfie with him. He finished his coffee still my ice cream is left with half melt. He ate a spoon of my ice cream but didn’t put it to me.

Now its movie time. We got corner seats. While entering into the theater I felt like I am entering into a new world when we walked into our seats my mind recollected some of the corner seat stories, I know I shouldn’t have those thoughts. ROHITH sat beside me lights were off, even the room temperature is low, but my palms are sweating, my legs are shivering, my blood is ice-cooled, he started pranks. I am laughing but my mind is off somewhere. Movie got started, title name is on the screen, he is watching the movie sincerely even not turning his head. But I don’t want to watch the movie, even I am watching also without my knowledge my eyes are turning onto him. He held his both hands like a schoolboy and watching movie, I am feeling very bored I want to talk to him but he is not even looking into me.

Movie is going on I didn’t understand the play. Some stupid thoughts are going on in the meanwhile Prabhas has started his romance with Tamana. I felt like oh my god! what the hell is going in front of me. Beside me he is sitting, in front of me romance is going on, my mind and heart became unite and suggesting me their stupid ideas, he is not even looking at me. Being a girl I am thinking like this then how couldn't he think about me?? But he has behaved so decently with me even he didn’t touch my skin, maintained distance until the end of the movie, at one moment my feeling on him were transformed into great respect. There is only one coke with us, first, he offered it but I didn’t have it, Even he also didn’t have it till the end. This made my feelings on him more stronger. Then I decided he is a very perfect guy. Every girl wants a guy like him until the end of the life. ‘’bahuballi” you made me to know about him deeper and deeper. On screen mainly on romantic songs I have seen ROHITH as a hero. This was my first movie with a guy, and I prayed it would be continued until the end of our lives. The movie was over but I don’t wanna go but it was already 4pm.

Still have only two hours left for me to go home, but I didn’t open up my feelings at, even he too.