You Must Have Your Reasons

You must have your reasons

To not keep your words

To just decide not to return

To not laugh with me any longer

On lazy couches, 

To not overnetflix and watch that

Silly 20 minutes series,

Not to evening out the noons

Talking nothing specific...

And shower with me & sweet nothings

To not shop with me 

The cauliflowers and the mushrooms

And hold my hand while I cross the crowd

Because you are aware I go anxious when

I lose your sight just for a while,

You must have your reasons

To not have dirty evenings

And stupid games when

I would look at you from the top

Of my balcony, so that you lookup

And look at me

Or 

When you will 

Lighten up your flash on the phone

In dark streets, so that I could map you 

From my tall corridor even though you're 

Just coming home.

To name the dogs & wedding months,

To decide on dresses and all that fun

Making jokes of family and 

Bitching of everything,

Laughing while still crying, 

Making love right after fights...

Holding on tight at scary nights

My singing aloud behind you 

On your bike... 

And blahs.

And blahs

And blahs

You must have your reasons,

And 

It will explain much but wouldn't 

Nearly enough.

So,

Spare your words.