Young And Not Beautiful

I just want some time alone

To weep bad

That my face is not in proportion

Please excuse me,

Let me feel sad

I can't see that bright face

Tv ad showed without

Thinking of what I have.

Lemme grieve with

Comfort of aloneness

That my face lacks sweetness,

I have nothing to show

To amp up a boy's heart

I want to dig deep

Into how bad clicks are

My random pics,

That my left is too plump

And right is almost flat.

There is a look of desolation

Which reveals my innermost,

One I wanna show no one.

Nothing ever catches up with

That sweet beautiful actress,

Pimples blatantly divisible

And where's jawline, invisible.

How to even live with what I am!

Lemme just be lame for a few hours

And think

Old age won't take much,

What an advantage

Ugly people get!

(A teenage grief)