To Life

I will smile even when you are giving me a thousand reasons to cry,

I will be fair with you- my life,

Even though you were so unfair to me.

I will not be the way you had been with me,

Because I want to be remembered as the one

Who smiled in spite of all of her griefs.

I want to be remembered as the one

Who kept on repeating her mistakes and never failed to admit them.

I want to be remembered as the one

Who had endless hope and her expectations ruined her,

You had crushed me and choked me to death,

I am a little distance away from dying,

But you are so cruel,

You take away the lives of others who are happy in their lives,

You steal the breath of those who struggle to be alive,

And don't grant death to those who don't want to live.

You are a bitter truth,

Now death seems a beautiful lie,

But you are still so cruel to give me hope that tomorrow will be better,

Since all these years I've lost and been hurt,

You have kept me trapped,

I hate the sunshine and another day,

That couldn't bring brightness in my life.

Each day I am struggling,

Life is sustaining me even when I don't want to be alive.

I believe life is meaningful and worthy,

But why don't I get what I have loved?