To Darkness And Back
To Darkness And Back


And then there was darkness…
I kept slipping into a void,
a cold and slimy limbo,
there were doors,
multiple of them arranged
like an array…
I turned the knob of one
and the door opened into
a lush green meadow,
a hammock swaying
in a summer afternoon;
i was reading a book
and you came from behind
and closed my eyes…
And then another door opened,
to our wedding day,
we exchanging our vows
circumambulating the fire…
And another one opened
to a lazy afternoon
the fan droning,
beads of sweat sprinkling
from your forehead
and I rubbing the sweat on
Your forehead…
Another door opened to
a late evening with friends
and samosas and ginger tea,
You had your hand on my shoulder
and I was chatting with
Mrs. Sharma and Mrs. Banarjee,
and another door,
and another door...
Like a train slithering through
the corridors of my brain
stopping at every memory-station.
Then there was a piercing voice
and the train stopped in a never-land.
No doors, no me, no you
Just darkness...
I kept hearing your voice,
you were crying,
you were asking
me to come back.
And then I felt I was floating
surfacing up from a black sea...
My eyes opened
to see you leaning over me
as two drops of tears
slid from your eyes
and fell on my cheeks…
I recovered later
and was discharged
from the hospital.
A temporary coma was
what the doctors had said…
And you said it was
all a dream.
But I say,
I almost died
and came back
listening to your voice.
At least, that is what
I want to believe...