Numb

weed makes me happy 

so does a blade 

it makes me feel something 

weed isn’t the same 

it doesn’t help anymore 

I'm not sure who to blame 

but when I look in that mirror 

I'm the only one in that frame 

I let her down 

I don’t know who I became .. 

I let my guard down 

I let them rage. 

right at me like bears in a cave .. 

thighs are torn. 

they burns when I sleep. 

I can’t 

so .. 

I get in my thoughts, i overthink 

&’ I weep. .