Maybe, maybe not

I'm not happy, I'm not sad 

I'm curious and anxious. 

I wanna share everything i know 

But I'm scared people will leave me after that 

I believe in God, 

I pray for everyone around me. 

But I'm losing people 

Maybe it is God's planning 

Maybe it's my arrogant 

I don't really put my effort in any relationship 

I live for God only for him.