Life Made Me An Orphan

Life was fair

For a moment it was there

Felt love from my family and the care

Perhaps I still had my fear

Then I was into an affair 

The most moment I stood and just stare 

No one knew the end was near

Those times we had the feeling so rare

Then dear

Dead came took mum from here

Cried for days in despair 

Trying wasn't easy I swear

This isn't easy to repair

Left no option to refer

Then I had to compare

My emotions hurt like the spear

Sincere 

For 6 years had to deal with this thought

Writing every time it hurts

Then I learnt a lot

A part of me was nought

The other path got shut

Struggled to go to school

Even when it wasn't just cool

Regardless I was trying to pull

Been the king also been like the fool

Felt like one day my cup will get full

Enjoy myself in the best of the wool

Pause

For without a cause

Dad also left

This is the part I regret

A lot of things I met

I was caught in the net

Of pain and depression 

Of solitude and obsession

Struggled hard to make the next session

Recession

Had to leave the place I called home

Away from siblings most tines all alone

The anger the snare and the harsh tone

There was even a safe zone? 

A lot of questions did cross my mind

I wasn't myself just tried to be kind

Who I was I was trying to find

Seems it's just me being left far behind...