JUGGLE OF BLAME

Plastic smile I wear on my face

Cause everyone calls me "Mr Fake"

Faulty is like my mother land

Rejection is the rental house I live in

Yes am a pretend 

So no one is ready to render me empathy

Indeed am now the juggle of blame

Yes am "Mr Fake"

Full of lies like flooding rain

Yes am the juggle of blame

Baptist with new name "Brother Coin"

Some call me Snail 

Just because in friendship am slow

Not my nature to be so

But am all the cause of most hurting pains

Should I change and my face I paint

Will I be a newly born indeed?

Cause I hate being juggle of blame

Oh Lord! Have mercy on me

Teach me the path to follow

Don't let me walk alone

Cause I won't make it when am solo

Please Father don't offer me your back

In this juggle of blame out I won't make

Yes am a sinner 

Wrong ways and deeds have been my way

It's because I preferred being a winner

I judged before that you always delay

Please let me out of this 

I hate being a juggle of blame

No more light I can see

My future unfortunately turns dark

In the beginning I thought I was bright

Now crying and in my knee 

Please Father erase all my past

And if possible the worse I have in my memories

Give me a new beginning

If before you I still have a purpose to live

Cause life has turn to be my enemy

Losing the fight all I dream and see

Everyone calling me a failure

And for now I remains the one to be blamed

If I deserve punishment

Then Father take my breath away

Six feet deep could be a better place to be

And if your mission I haven't complete 

Lord give me wisdom

For the daily battle to win

Make me the winner Father

Create in me a vision

Cause the world will only tell me R.I.P

And in my send off praise will remains

Yet in pain now i face it all alone

I can't listen no more

That's why with my pen complaints I noted on a paper

So that to keep the hope a live

To fight for better me before I die

I wanna change the fast lies

Stop being called the juggle of blame.