January Night

I take a step outside my door,

I can feel my spine chilling, my jaw tightly shut..

My fingers buried deep inside my palms,

I can smell the dampness of the ground

As I walk with a delirium in my mind on a sober January night..

Why do we fail to see the beauty that surrounds us everywhere?

Why cant’ you feel the joy in all the small things people share?

We all deserve to move ahead, yet why are we held back?

A charmed smile hides much more than we could see.

You fail to hear cause you never listened

Must I be scrutinized always for being myself

Truth hurts but pain is an old friend...

Please don’t disregard the guilt or forget about shame

These two big players are leaders of the game..

Amidst all this chaos and fury of rage,

I wonder..

Should I crawl back into darkness and swallow my pride..

Lingered memories caress my mind

What happened after that is irrelevant at best..

All I will say is that I was nothing but stressed

I know now that I hold so much more worth

And I love myself more than anyone ever could..

Just know that these words have come straight from my heart

I am trying to make this a poem so it seems like some kind of art..

just remember..no matter how bad those memories were

You can never restart or relive them,

But can always learn and try not to repeat them..

Thing may not seem going your way now

But soon there will come a time

When you'll be laughing back at your problems..

The fact that you're alive is a cause for celebration..

So lets not waste it on petty problems

Should you ever need a shoulder, please find me.

I hear a voice which seems familiar as I come back home..

True beauty is within, layered under sin

Hold me tightly in your thoughts and I will hold you in my heart.