I Want To Cry
I Want To Cry
I am a man and I want to cry
Can I?
Oh! But you think that's effeminate and weak
Okay then I will wear the mask of masculinity and strongness
And will leave me to die
But really I want to cry.
Can I talk my feelings out at least?
But you will tell it to the whole world and I won't like it.
Okay, I will let it all deep inside me and will always say 'Good' when you will ask 'How am I?
You will accept me then, right?
But I want to cry?
Can I count on YOU because I think you are the one?
Yes yes you will say and then slowly will betray me just like everyone else and I won't be able to handle that.
Okay, I will make my buddha self understand that I will always be alone.
But I want to cry.
Can I?
You know what, I have got tired of it.
I don't want to live anymore. I want to die.
But then, you will think I have shown cowardice.
Okay, I will try to show it as an accident and not suicide. So that you will still like me after I die.
But I want to cry. Can I?
I really would love to live and have a purpose in life
But you wouldn't let me survive.
But why am I doing everything for your acceptance?
Society society society.
Fuck this society, not literally but of course.
I want to scream. I want to cry.
Surely words help but not much.
I once believed people help but they don't.
And you are definitely not helping.
So, stop right there. I don't need to listen to you.
Because you make me feel like a criminal, you want to attach the strings to me, you want to capture me in a cage.
But I want to be free.
I am a man and now, I want to cry.