I Fake Smiles, It's Easier

I fake smiles, 

It's easier.

I hide my scars,

It's easier.

I feel protected

When I bleed.

I feel praised

When I lie.

I feel complete

When I compromise.

I find hope

In my nightmares;

In which I break

Myself into pieces;

And then I smile

As I fall apart.

Bit by bit,

Day after day.

I find hope

In my nightmares;

'Cause I am fighting,

Fighting to find.

Find that 'me'

That I lost.

Somewhere in my past,

Somewhere amidst the chaos;

Trying to be something,

Craving to be everything,

Ending up being nothing.

I fake smiles, 'cause it's easier.

(Prompt 5)