Hate Myself

I don't feel like I should

Sorry I've been misunderstood

Sometimes I feel like help

But I'm sorry that I hate myself

Late night got the best of me

Brings out the worst in me

Feels there's nothing out there for me

It's me but it's not even me

See me cause my past kills me

It's me and I don't see me

It's me but I can't feel it

Feel it like am just a misfit

6 feet

Keep seeing all my worse defeats_

Instinct 

Sees it but it's all deceit 

Is it but it isn't 

Cease me from ceasing 

You leaving 

Leave me

So why I'm still living? 

I don't feel like I should

Sorry I've been misunderstood

Sometimes I feel like help

But I'm sorry that I hate myself

Need help but you can't help me

What else can the world sell me? 

Tell me 

Cause it's unhealthy 

Am poor but I feel wealthy

Wake up but it's too early 

Clearly

Unfairly

Suicide did show nearly

So dearly

I don't feel like I should

Sorry I've been misunderstood

Sometimes I feel like help

But I'm sorry that I hate myself 

I Am lost in the thoughts of my own actions

Try to stay me from all the distraction

Reminiscing on my reactions

This part of me there's no caption

A lot of questions in my mind that I can't answer

Can't stand who I'm cause it doesn't matter

Knee deep in my own but I can't have it

Feels it is it but doesn't deserve it.