Ghost Pain
Ghost Pain
I see the golden sky
The bright light
I can smell the rain
Before it has even arrived
I crave the day
The day I left behind
Where I stood
Dancing
In the rain
Where I made boats
Out of paper plane
Where I stood still
When water
Blew my sense
I let go
Of the heat
I could feel the earth
Going free
I find it hard
To indulge in jabbery
So I let go
Of the heat
Piling inside of me
Spontaneously
I see the golden sky
The dying light
Something sun like
But where do I hide
Where do I go
To survive
Here I stand
Wondering
Under a roof
Why don't I run outside
Why can't I move
What made it different
What undid me
How did the dilemma
Turn to jeopardy
Why it had become
So hard
To listen to my first thought
Instead, I start
A battle
To set all the thoughts free
Why did I become
About
Thoughts that are bratty
A golden sky
Turning to grey
As I realize
How I smuggle a day
For the present
How I turn past
Into an over-romanticized
Advent.