Cherophobia

In the silence of the darkness

Filled with thoughts

I wait for it to happen

And I think the ship has lost its captain

The heart pumps and thumps

Like an earthquake has come

The ship becomes a part of the sea of sorrow

As the biggest water fall is yet to be followed

When the sky is filled with clarity and normality

I can still feel the winds versatility

I interrogate myself on why I cannot...

Cannot navigate myself through such a clear path.

I wonder to myself why I can't wear a smile

That has not been marketed and bought by myself

I ask myself yet yet much more

Like, what is happiness?

Is it a state of mind?

Or...

Or an illusion of life?

But then again

I'm not living in my head

I'm not making it up to dread

For it is the reality

In conflict with my mentality

This is what we must accept in this world

Where only pain is felt