Best temporary

It's 1.49, standing on the balcony alone, thinking...

I wish I have a timeline and I could go to my past and change my mistakes. 

I'll never depend on anyone.....

One of the worst feelings is to get me out of your life

But still keeping you in my heart, thinking of you every second,... 

Meanwhile, I miss you, want you, but can't tell because

The situations are not the same anymore....

You are not the same anymore... 

Yes, I know you'll definitely say that nothing like that happening... 

It's just your wrong mindset... 

But... No... Everything is not ok...

It's not my mindset, it's you who forced me to think so... 

Someday when I'll be not there in your life... 

I may say, You are going to miss 

My boring useless talks... 

My silly questions, 

My baseless wishes, 

My fightings for no reason, 

My arguments, 

My mood swings...

And I'll definitely wish that one day you could understand...

my possessiveness, 

my weakness, 

My jealousy, 

And my insecurities toward you... 

But most of all you may miss the way I care for you... 

That simple text "Have you Taken lunch???"

May seems normal and usual to you,

It also makes you irritated most of the time and replying like "is food everything in life??"...

But behind this small text, the great treasure of love was hidden which was never noticed or understood by you... 

When I first met you, honestly saying...

I didn't know you were gonna be this much important to me... 

I was never in need of love... But I don't know how and Why this happened to me knowingly or unknowingly???

No matter, how long or short I'm in your life, or what my role is, I'll leave my mark. 

You won't be able to forget me... 

Yes, I may not be your permanent but I promise I'll be your best ever temporary.