The mother in me

I had been teaching for twelve years. Was loved by kids and colleagues for the kind of work I used to deliver. Working hard, burning the midnight oil, inspiring kids to perform to the best of their ability had become my passion. I was quite contented and peaceful. My work was my happy place. And then I had a baby... the whole world changed!!! It was a different feeling to leave him and go for work. I was perplexed, confused, suffocated and completely on a guilt trip. The mother in me wanted to leave the job but the career-oriented female wanted to fulfill her aspirations. The baby was neglected, he did not eat well. This continued for two years. I thought, with time things would be better. The hours at work started hurting my conscious. I kept wondering to quit or to continue. And one fine day, I decided that the baby needs my part more than anybody else. It was 2017 when I left work. Today, I feel proud of my decision. I could take care of my son, instill values in him, be with him so that he doesn't replace me with television or gadgets. And it's not that I left my aspirations behind, I did couple of online courses from Harvard and other universities, completed my course in career counseling and now I am a career coach and a mother who is able to take out time for her son and my thirst for my career has quenched too. If I talk about my life, my experience, I think the kid needs a mother the most. Nobody in this whole wide world can replace the nourishment a mother can offer. And now he jumps on me, runs behind me, pulls my hair, fights with me and henceforth, leaves me completely 'Motherable'!!