Precognitive Dreams

Precognitive dreams - A little jugaad for happiness

The ultimate weapon of choice to do something is - JUGAAD -- Anonymously Me when high on booze

To quote myself from the above lines, I have seen a lot of jugaads till date but I couldn't discover one for rebooting happiness. As said (I don't know by whom; may be by myself when I was drunk) that happiness comes from unexpected things, I too stumbled upon one this evening.

After a long tiring journey, my curious mind couldn't make itself think about any possible damages during the times of crisis (psst, a heartbreak included). As usual, I checked my marks for the recent exam I gave for a Grade B profile. I was in no shock to know that I missed my selection rank by a huge margin (earlier it was narrower; but may be due to expansion due to heating effect in summers, the distance between my ambitions and the cut-off marks too started expanding).

It was a moment of utter silence for I was sitting in my chair with books all over the desk. But as I said that unexpected things make us miss a heartbeat (including a breakup too ), I too missed a heartbeat when I came to know that I will get through a Grade A position exam easily. So it was a moment of mixed feelings both happiness and sadness but happiness was weighing more because it came after a long haul of resistance since June 2018. So, to make myself comfortable in the situation I went to the chaaywala with my bestie and had a sip of the special stress relieving drink needless to say with a smoke.

Discussion on chaai always are genuine ones so I spoke my heart out about missing the mark but rejoiced too about possibly clearing Grade A. But as we human beings tend to analyze situations (may be using Porter's 5 Forces model) I too started thinking or rather over thinking about my consecutive failure in clearing the exams. I was sad on my face but deep down I was smiling cunningly for defeating the failure within me. Hindus often believe that a person with spotted tongues makes things happen when they curse or bless according to their mood, in simple terms you may call it a "kaali zabaan". So I asked my bestie to curse me rather showering blessings which I figured out that her curses come true when spoken out. She cursed me smilingly which I replied to her with a punch on her head to curse me again and we both burst out in laughter. The walk we had after the curse Wala thing never ended as my alarm buzzed loudly and I came back from the la-la land into reality in a second.

For a moment I thought it was all real but to my surprise it was just a dream which came after ages. It all felt so real that I lit up a cigarette and saw the smoke rise up into the dawn skies returning to the bed which will take me back to the walk which I left incomplete. It was just a moment where I found in my dream that we have to discover new jugaads for happiness too rather than thinking about your ex who doesn't even care whether you exist in this realm or not.