Love Hurts....

Love ....a very strong word....used today as a front man for all the possible fake malafide agendas people have on mind....I want to begin with my experiences of love and the process....till date being married I've never found love ..... I reckon the only pure love in a sacred form are from our parents. Our babies ...and oh yes!!! Our pets...

.I fell in love at age 16 ....I recall a boy on a bicycle..... riding to and fro .... smiling ... handsome .. butterflies in my tummy....said the silly hello ...then was invited to his home....met his mother....but as I could see it...I wanted a career not smooches.... Because when we kissed his breath was rancid....I was like no I can't ....he's a put off.....crazy as this sounds ....he flew off to make a man of himself and I write him a letter saying ....it's over.. all love vanished in thin air....so this is what I mean love hurts....he hurt....I was free of him...

.I grew up.... Got an education....hailed from a humble background....got a job.....helped parents financially.....but I was 21 .....a void....needed some one to hold .... talk....not be judgemental.... cause parents and siblings are......did meet boys ....some good some bad some ugly.....went out on dates . Dances....now we have clubs....all the charm and beauty gone.....at this time of my life . .

I could not find a love that was truth full..... just like today ...men were always opaque....I could never understand why.....here was me blunt....an open book....all men want is to be understood in and out of bed....Give me space .....that's the most common line till date.....I did meet men who start of as angels dropped from heaven.....their tongues could even shame willy Wonka's factory....

After a few weeks.....they were like .....your too overbearing..pushy.....some or the other excuse to move to a new grazing pasture....this was incomprehensible.....love hurts .....trust me. One blessed day so now to say I met a man through a common friend.....well read ....not so good looking....but the charm and aura was impeccable.....I was blown off my feet....I thought God make this happen...he's the one for me....

.I a lifetime with him.....ok....we spoke ......arte..drank....movies.....smooched too...he was so possessive ....very dominating....and I loved all that.....this continued for two years.....he was studying law.....I had a good job...all was just fine and peaceful......one day I asked him it's time we get married.....he said of course....we should....he was happy too....now I had my savings....made my jewelry etc.... bought him gifts.....kept most of the premarital stuff ready.....we had to set a date....over coffee he was very quiet....coz I knew his parents did not know about us....me a Christian he a Hindi gujrati.....

I've never met or encountered how fickle-minded and weak a man can be ...he tells me.....I can't marry you....my parents say no issues with her religion....she's educated... good job etc.....but she's dusky....we don't want our generation next with dark skin....when he told me this...I was furious....I asked him....what's your take on this....he was silent......

I got up threw the coffee on this white law clothes....and just whispered......I thought you were a man....trust me never looked back.....I then went off to marry by proposal....loveless marriage....you just lay ..... conceive.....raise kids.....are you alive? ....no.

Love hurts, my friends....love lives, love dies....it makes you beg and plead....and if this is what love does....it's not love....it's human slander....love hurts...be on your guard....