Lifeless

"You're so quiet!" "Why don't you talk?". These are not mere questions. These are words that stab me the hardest. No, I'm not quiet. I'm just around those people whom I don't understand. I'm around those people who do nothing but make me realise that I was wrong and I wasn't.

This is just so difficult. It is difficult to pretend that you're fine when in reality you are not. It is difficult to accept that you're no one's first priority and all of the people you talk to have someone else who they care about more. In fact, so much more. It is so difficult to hide your tears behind your "I don't care" face. Why do I have to go through all of this? Just because I consider friendship the most important thing in my life? Just because all my life I've never done anything wrong to someone I once considered my "friend?

I don't have answers to these questions.

But I wonder if anyone ever notices this? I wonder how no one knows what I'm going through, But honestly, I don't blame anyone everyone has their own life. I'll wait for the day when someone despite all of this, will choose to NOTICE.