Jealousy Destroys The Soul

I was always reserved from childhood. Since my parents were working late and I was kept at home by myself, I never really experienced social gatherings much. The only place I'll be apart from my home will be school. As a single child, I never had to share or fend myself. Thus, I grew up to be a socially awkward and arrogant person. Due to my good grades, people acknowledged me; Else, I am invisible. But with all the drawbacks, I was brought up with good values.

One day, a newcomer in my class asked help in mathematics. I helped her and she picked up pretty well. She understood so very well, that a day came where she began to score more than me. No way. I should be recognized more and not her. But exactly the opposite happened. She became very popular in my class, and also among my friends. The hell she will steal my friends. they are mine. And that was the time I knew I was jealous of a newbie.

I was so envious that I was ready to sabotage her image. I slowly started to plot against her. I began with her class works, where I stole one of them and tore a few pages in one. I even scribbled in her notes. Once when I was staging my plan by writing bad about her in the blackboard, I was caught red-handed by my friend. This wasn't my part of the plan. I know from the look on her face that she was beyond angry. She was furious. But said nothing. She just held my hand and took me out of school. Since I was only evil after school hours, going out of the campus wasn't a big deal.

My friend took me to the nearby cafe. I thought she was hungry, but what I saw there has scared me since. There was that newbie, whose education and image I was sabotaging was there washing vessels. Oh my goodness! What have I done? Destroying another girl's education and image and in that process, I've lost my true self. The values, the principles, I've just let myself done. No more. It was time to heal. This bloody jealousy is done by destroying my soul.