I And My Kid

I have grown up with all my cousins and I’m known for loving and taking care of my younger cousins. I strongly believed that I will turn out be the “Best MOM” in the whole world as I already have expertise in this (read: myth).

Finally the day arrived when, on Feb 20th 2010 my baby boy, sweet little angel, came in to our life. As I already believed and I know for sure that I’m the best MOM, I knew it is a “cake walk” for me to take care of my kid until reality hit me. Of course that was the day when my spouse and I have tasted what real happiness when our hearts filled with ecstasy and eyes with tears of happiness, looking at sweet little toes, eyes and cheeks of my baby (cho chweet).

First three months, this little cutie pie was awake whole night as he has something really very important to do, and you know what it means for a MOM if he is awake. He slowly learnt to turn upside down, sit on his own, crawl. Every new act of his is a celebration for the whole family.

Trouble started when he started to crawl. Nothing in the house is in its own place. Whatever attracts him or fascinates him can be found in his hand and then in his mouth (except for of course food), result was all the things in the house are moved to a certain height, which he cannot reach (sigh !!). When he was around nine months old, he started to stand with the help of the walls and other objects and reached heights to next level (he even reached the computer table to switch on the PC).

Time just flew and my little angel turned 1 yr. We had a very good gathering and all near and dear arrived to bless the boy. He was the first one to taste his cake with his fist on it. All the guests have got a good picture of my kid’s mischievousness by now, and were blessing me all the best with a little pity in their eyes, I didn't get the real meaning of it, at that time until he took his first step on April 3rd 2011. Everything related to him seems difficult for me now (for the so called best MOM). Giving him food, making him mentally prepared for shower, getting him ready to school etc..requires 1 hour of my patience, physical work, vocal stress and result only 40 % successful in the effort and this continues till date (not sure how long this will continue).

He is all up for destroying everything ( in telugu: kadedi aata ki anarham), he threw mobile phone from the top floor, TV remote has stopped working, Laptop has gone for servicing not sure how many times and so on

I can say one thing now: I may not be best MOM but all what I know is My definition of happiness and life has changed now. I feel filled, when he eats his food properly, I feel the pain if he is hurt, I sense real happiness if I see him happy. In short our (Mine and My spouse’s) world has become small and beautiful in which only the little Devil “Kashyap” Lives.