Feeling Like You're Losing Control

I know that in these crazy times, we all feel like we have lost all control. Everything that's going on around us feels like the world is coming to an end, and yet there is nothing we can do about it. People are going crazy. It has become a society of me, me, me as we see people acting with no regard for others. 

Every day we hear different things, that we don't even know what to believe anymore. Social media and the news feel like everyone is trying to sell us a different story. Our brains are overloaded with all this information and misinformation that is out there.

We want to hold on to having faith, and yet sometimes we're scared to death that the world is coming to an end. For so many of us, we need to be in control of everything in our lives.

I know that is true for me. It's because of the fact that my ex-husband controlled me for 24 years, and now I need to be in control. I need to feel like I am the captain of this ship, and I get to tell it where to go and what to do.

I know myself, and when I'm not feeling in control, I need to do something to change that. For me, that has always been either working out or cleaning, and I would get manic about either one. 

I would start off on one project and end up 3 days later scrubbing the whole house down. Or exercising for hours on end because at least I felt in control of something, my body, or my home. I know some people overeat. Some people throw themselves in bed and pull the covers over their heads. Some people over shop, and overspend. Some people tend to drink or do drugs.

It is all a coping mechanism that we all have. We are all trying to hold on to some kind of control. We are trying to cope when things are coming apart, and this is the only way we know how. It's a scary feeling to feel like the world is spinning out of control, and you can not do a damn thing about it. 

Many women in abusive relationships have body disorders because they can't control anything else in their world. The only thing they feel like they can control is their own body. I know that I smoked for many more years than I wanted to because my ex-husband hated it, and he couldn't control that one fact about me. It killed him that he didn't have the control to make me stop and so I kept doing it just to feel some type of control. 

I also know when things were really bad between us, when I was mad or upset, I cleaned. I need to focus on one thing, the one thing I can control and that's okay as long as it is not a harmful thing like years before when I used to do drugs to fill that spot. 

We all must realize what our triggers are and what we do when we are triggered. We need to know that we can't always be in control and that it's okay to let go of that need. We need to trust in a higher power, no matter which one you believe in, and then give it over to them.

We must see that no matter what we do, especially in this case, it will make no difference, so we must not beat ourselves up over it.

So today, my friends, remember we are human, and there are some things we will never have control over, and that's okay. But we do have control over our emotions, over our words, over what we do, how we treat people, and even how we treat ourselves. This is what we have control over, and we must learn to use it wisely.