Facade

"I have gone down to such an extent that I am getting scared to see my reflections in the mirror….I am really scared to face myself or its my hatred for myself…. What has really made me down to this extent because of what I have enclosed myself since yesterday… trying to find out the reason… I want to rectify myself…!"- Raima has promised to save her daughter's life but she is only not getting courage to face the truth…

Where it started exactly, she does not remember! The only thing she remembers the day of her first meeting with Sheyan during his interview for the post of her manager. A handsome, teenager guy who had just completed his intermediate from school… A long way to go, but still he preferred to join a part time job to get some exposure to the World. He seemed very seductive to me and he was really flattered in my exaggerated beauty. It took hardly 8 hrs to become each other's sleeping partner, which I dint have with any one since last almost 60 days. That time, I didn't have really imagined this would have such a terrific outcome…! It was almost 3 months back.

I am always very confident about my caginess. But, was it really the starting point of today's deposition?

If I look back, then I was an average student academically, didn't have any desire to get involved in a corporate life, but from where can I get enough money to fulfil my lavish lifestyle! I had told my Mom to arrange an affluent man for me, immediately after study, even though I had few boyfriends, but it would have taken a long time for them to get settled in their profession…So, they were not marriageable candidates for me.

Mom was very straight while selecting groom for me. Still, I remember the scene when I heard about Vinay, my husband. He was eight years elder than me, but was a Project Manager in an IT company. Many of my seniors were reporting to him, in their job. Without thinking anything, immediately I said "Yes" to marriage, as no one from my girl's gang could have got this kind of marriage proposals by that time. Lavish lifestyle had always enticed me and that became my habit.

But after few years, I felt that I had lost my charming young age for a single man, to become a mother of 2 kids, what did I really do for myself and when did I enjoy my life of being myself? Really, I had done lots of injustice to me, by getting recognised as Mrs. Vinay. So cant I have my self identity? But what can I do now? Even a very small job expects lots of hard work and commitment. I have to come out from my comfort zone now. I also want to get a place in the self-earning, highly respectable women's' list of our society.

I had to dress up myself in a very appealing way, after all I was attending a business interview of IT Recruiter. During the interview, Mr. Pathak had really praised me about my dress sense and I had never left a stone unturned to get the job. We had many outings together, any how we had to grow our business.

Pari and Raja were grown up. So, maid was enough for them. Vinay was also happy in spending time with his kids after the office work. So, there was not any restrictions for me to build my career. Late night parties with clients, Mauritius holidays with Mr. Pathak and getting designated as Vice President of a reputed IT Recruitment firm, owned by Mr.Pathak had really fulfilled my dream of becoming a self-dependent woman with self-earned identity. Where were my college time counterpart…they could never become a Director even though they would be working for their lifetime, which I had achieved within 3 yrs of my job. Really, I was proud of myself.

"If I am having extra marital affair with someone else, then who has restricted you to have the same with whomever you like…? Instead of accepting your flaws, you are blaming me… Just say that no girl will like to have one-night stand with you, as you have become older…! You have lost all of your strength… then why do you restrict me in enjoying my life…!"- Vinay had decided to part his way from me, but still he preferred to be a good father, after hearing this from me and continued to stay in the same house, even though we had to separate out our bedrooms.

Sudden demise of Mr. Pathak, had snatched away my position from his company. It was becoming unbearable for me to tolerate Vinay, by staying 24 hrs at home.

But, God was not too rude for me. I got the ownership of We4 Consulting after the sudden demise of Vinay. That was the happiest day for me in my life! I became the CEO of We4 Consulting. Afterall, whatever happens it happens for good only.

By this time, I had become 38 yrs old and Pari had just completed her 10th grade.

It was a beginning of a new life!

"Why guys will never set one's heart for me! I was glamorous, well-established and CEO of an IT Consulting company. They had to do the same in order to get a job and to get settled in it that I had done one day in my life…all are past, but the same was going to be the present for these young guys…They had to make me please to get all these…!"

Sheyan was one among them, who was a nice painter also.

But, Sheyan's over possessiveness towards me was making me breathless.

I had also clearly told him that relationship is restricted only in bed not outside of it…!

Day by day he was becoming licentious, but a butterfly can never stand on a single flower… its his nature to roam from flower to flower…even after so many trials, I failed to explain him about myself.

I became free, when I didn't see a single missed call from him during my Goa holiday with Rajeev, my new PR executive.

But, today it was a shock for me when I saw Pari's nude pictures in magazine 'Leg Show' and a sms from Sheyan "Imagine, what can I do!"

It is whose mistake "Sheyan's, Pari's, Vinay's or mine….?"

"I wanted to be a self-dependant woman, but was my success due to only because of hard work…Did I become really self-dependent?"

"I wanted to enjoy my life…for that I sold up myself under someone to get that luxury of life....yes, i had sold up my body to satishfy someones....I didn't realise my role in my family, responsibility towards other members of it…!"

"If I can use someone for my hunger-satisfaction…then who has restricted other to use Pari for his self-satisfaction…after all they teen agers, they can do anything due to excitement, but I was grown up… I was a Mom…if I could not restrict myself, then how can I restrict Pari…? But, now she has to face all the punishments of my misdeeds done with many Sheyans...!" -I suddenly came to sense after hearing knock on the door.

"Mom, did you see Pari Di's dirty videos getting viral in Youtube?" -I didn't have any words of Raja's question.