Am I Real?

"Good job Miss Ferrer, as expected, you got the highest score in our exam. Continue your good work!" My ears almost clapped of what I have heard from our professor. Well, that's me, Abbi Ferrer everyone! The bell rang and I start packing my things when my friends congratulate me.

"Abbi can I have a piece of your brain, you're a very cool girl." That's Eunice, one of my high-class friends. Well, I don't prefer cheap persons on my circle, they will only be a piece of trash. 

After I finished packing my things I took the elevator with my friends. We reached the parking lot and we bid our goodbyes as they entered on their cars.

"Hmmm," I suddenly snorted when I felt a masculine arm wrapped unto my waist from behind. "Chill, babe, you're always shocked every time I did this." A smile suddenly plastered on my lips. He is Caleb, the heartthrob on our campus, a great basketball player, tall, handsome and many more, you might fall in love with him if I tell you every detail about him. By the way, he is my boyfriend. He then opened the front seat of my car and let me enter first before he took the driver seat. He accompanied me to our mansion, bid me a goodbye kiss before he took his way back. One of our maids took my things then I head to my father's office to inform him that I already got home.

This is my life, I have this exceptional beauty that a lot of girls out there wished to have, an excellent brain that causes me to be on top, popularity, perfect and wealthy family, a loving boyfriend, and high-class friends. I will do everything to retain this life, no one can steal this from me, no one!

Back at school, my favorite season is here, autumn. I'm taking my way to the gym with my friends to watch Caleb's practice game when a girl suddenly bumped on me. 

"You again?! Such a fool! Aren't you informed that you have a pair of an eye to using if someone's on your way that you might bump into?!" My blood suddenly boiled when I saw the face of this creature again, she's Gail! Messy curled hair paired with those thick eyeglass, pimples all over her face, fat body covered with that unironed uniform. What a mess! I don't really know why do I always feel this irritation every time I see her, it feels like I want her to be gone, completely gone, I don't know. As usual, I suddenly grabbed the collar of her uniform, pull her eyeglass and throw it on the floor for the nth times. I grabbed the bottled drink Eunice was holding and pour it on Gail's hair. I pushed her, that caused her to fall on the floor. I could only see her tears falling, but I did not feel any guilt, I feel satisfaction. "The next time you bump on me, you will be welcomed on hell again, have a nice day Gail." Then I continued my way to the gym, followed by my friends wearing those smirks.

The next day, I saw Gail again on my way, but before our way meets, she then headed in a different direction. My blood suddenly boils, I can feel this unexplained anger that I always feel towards her. I stalked her and found out that she headed to the gym, hid on a post as she watches someone. I then followed the direction on where she was looking, and there he was, my boyfriend Caleb was admired by this slimy junk. 

My feeling earlier doubled, as if I'm gonna burst from anger. I then grabbed her hair from behind and drag her hair until we reached the rooftop. It was still early so no one saw me dragging this mess. All I can hear is her screams and loud call of mercy. I saw a sharp thing on the floor, I pushed her that causes her to slump on the wall. She tried to grab my hair, but my reflexes are faster. I used that sharp thing and slashed it on her wrist. 

I want to do more, I want to hurt her more, I want her to be gone, completely gone! It must only be me! 

I put my hand on her neck, held it tightly that causes her breath to slow down. She pushed me which gave her a chance to gasped for more air. I used the sharp thing again and slashed her left cheek and it bleeds like what happened to her right wrist. I felt a little satisfaction, I laughed heavily and loudly like a devil witch on movies. 

For the last part, I grab the sharp thing in the air pointing at her, I want to kill her, it must only be me!

"You must die!" I shouted at her and when I'm about to stab her, a phrase from her stopped me, caused me to drop the sharp thing as my knees trembled. 

"If you kill me, you will die too, remember?" Then she smirked that brought shivers on my spine.

Then everything went black. The last thing I knew is that when I opened my eyes, I saw a white ceiling, then I suddenly felt the pain on my body. What happened to me? Why am I here at the hospital?

"Ms. Ferrer, how are you feeling?" A nurse beside me asked. I'm about to seat but then I felt the pain on my right wrist which is now covered with white fabric. Where is that Gail? Is she dead, already? 

"Where did this wound came from? What happened to me?" The nurse gave me a weak smile, she nodded and left me there. "Wait, what was that? Another crazy creature." I uttered.

I then felt the heaviness of my body, my eyes widened when I saw it. When did I get this fat body? Like what?! And my hair, why does it grow like this long? My head suddenly aches. An old lady, wearing a white and long doctor suit came in my room wearing those sweet smiles. She sat on the chair beside me and put out an envelope and some paper and a pen. Wait, what is exactly happening here? I suddenly laughed, I don't know why. The old lady nodded as if she knew what I was thinking when exactly me myself, don't know why I laughed that hard. I suddenly felt the pain on my left cheek and then there I knew that I also got a fabric-covered on my left cheek. Did I sleep for a year? I then burst on laughing, what is exactly happening to me? Then I suddenly felt anger when I remembered Gail. 

" She must die, Gail must die. Do you understand?" I shouted at the old lady. I said those phrases for how many times and then my tears fell down. Why am I crying? 

"I know Abbi, that's why I am here to help you." The old lady said, giving me an assuring look. She then took some photos from the envelope and there I saw photos of Gail from the rooftop where I almost killed her. Blood was seen on her cheeks down to her uniform and wrist, her hair was also a mess, completely a mess. I did a really good job of hurting her! 

"You don't have to do this on yourself, Abbi, you must live. There is a lot of person out there who truly loves you. God is also there to accept you whenever you need him. You don't need to put your life at risk. Don't do this to yourself. Please be awaken from your imaginary life. Your face won't describe your personality. You are beautiful with that acne on your face, with that kind of body. I know that you have a good heart. You were just blinded by the life you badly want to have," she said.

"What are you talking about? Where's my parent? I badly want to talk to them regarding this matter. Give me my phone, I want to talk to my Dad, and also Caleb, he must be that worried about me. And that Gail, I am not yet done with her! I want to go back to our mansion, just hand me my phone," I suddenly felt the pain inside me, and I began to cry. I don't know, what happened? 

" Your parents already died 10 years ago Abbi, Caleb is not your boyfriend, he's just your ultimate crush. You lived in a small apartment with your grandmother. That's you, Abbi, you were just hallucinating. Everything you were remembering is all lies, made by your mind, it was just all a product of your imagination. That's why I am here to help you recover, you are too depressed Abbi, you almost killed yourself on your school's rooftop, that's the reason why you have that slashes on your wrist and cheek. Thank God, someone saw you before you could stab yourself using that sharp thing."

Everything she said echoed on my mind. I then find myself breathing hardly. Tears are falling on my cheeks. This can't be, no, please just no. 

"Who Am I?"

"You are Abbigail Ferrer," she said.