After We Met

I wish i could explain your eyes

A'd how the sound of your voice gives me butterflies, 

how your smile make my heart skip a beat

2 days after we met

You look like you smell honey and no pain 

Let me have a taste of that. 

You've touched me without 

Even touching me. 

3 days. 

Oh! My heart Who has dream so much, oh ! Unfinished heart, oh! Carnal heart, oh ! Eternal heart. 

5 days. 

Your eyes took me to the cloudy sky and put me in the Burning rubble, while the Rain falls, I stayed in the wet soil that smells like honey.

But now I dont see you honey eyes anymore. 

6 days. 

When I know you are there and I'm Desperate to look at those beautiful eyes but I can't. 

When I kidnap a look I fond you staring at me.

Why can't you look away?. Why you don't want me to drawn in your eyes again.? 

It's my fault. 

When we talked the first time I should have keep looking at them till I melt. 

When I look at you, I find you looking me back, I took my eyes away, I don't know why I do that. 

I imagine you telling me." Why you do that to me, can't I Just look to your eyes, your cheeks, your Dimples, your lips, is it that hard to look at me ?" 

7 days 

I'm waiting for you. 

talk to me again, give me a peace of chocolate again, show me your Spontaneous again, show me your kindness again, talk to me without thinking of what you should say Like you did Last time, Just talk to me please. 

8 days. 

Tonight I meet you. 

Now I'm sure you know that I have a problem with your eyes. 

I saw you in front of me. And I was sure that you Will see me. But I kept my eyes dawn

I should have stayed close to you. But I could not. 

It must be a mistake. 

is drowning in the eyes of someone be love ?. I think that's not love or maybe it is. I don't believe in love, not sure it really exists, but even if it does for some People, it won't for me. 

10 days. 

I stepped up in the stairs But I came back to you. I was so close to you but you didn't see me. 

I Heard you talking to someone. And I wished if that someone was me. 

I finally took my courage and decided to look at you. You were not there. 

After I was in front of my classroom. I knew you were there. It was my turn to enter , I was witting for you to get out. 

Finely you are out, I kept looking at you So that maybe you Will see me. 

You looked at me, you smiled. 

we did not talked by words, only our eyes talked in their language. 

Why you did that ? Do you want to kill me ? 

I die when you look at me. So what if you smiled. Trust me, You will find me buried in your lips. 

I smiled at you back but I was wearing my stupid mask. I don't think you saw it.

11 days 

Are you love ? Are you a lie ? Are you an imagination ?. 

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13 days. 

Today I was so exited to see you. When I came to our classroom, the professor was not their so I waited u on the stairs where we talked Last time. 

I was surrender by bunch of friends that I don't care about.

Even when I was talking to them I was waiting for you. 

But for à second, I swear for one second you left my mind. 

 I looked if you had come. 

You were looking at me., I felt like the time has stopped and I have owned the world. You were looking as if you were broken, as if you were waiting for me to look at your ayes. 

But I could not. 

Because They Will know, and They Will not understand us. 

I thought if I came earlier I Will talk to you., I thought my lips Will talk to yours, My eyes Will kiss yours, my hand will touch yours, But it didn't. 

16 days. 

Where are you now ?, why you are you late to me,? I'm looking for you every where, When you are not close to me I feel like a part of me is missing. 

Come on my heart, tell him how i love him, tell him that I see him in my Dreams, tell him that I see him wherever I go. 

I miss you. 

I miss your eyes, and I'm going blind. 

As soon as you look elsewhere, I die. 

When I among the living my love I do not see.

What is it to live, When everything in this world tells me about your absence. 

20 days. 

Today we will meet at 5pm I spend my morning thinking about what should I wear, should I put some make up, should I wear à Black t-shirt or a White one, should I wear my new sneakers or not. 

I dressed up, I stayed in front of the mirror, hours and hours thinking of how should I make my hair. Just to look beautiful in your eyes.  

I came earlier again, I did not find you, I waited you, a girl called me, I went to her, the professor came, I entered, I sat down on my usual chair. 

. You used to be the first person Who comes, but now you are not. You were late, I feared that you Will not come, every second I look to your chair, maybe you came and I didn't saw you, When ever someone Enter the door I tought it is you. 

When we were Just about to start the lesson, you came. I said to myself "oh! Finally my heart Will beat again". You sited far from me, Between us there was a row of students, but even so, at least I can see you. 

With my left eye I saw him looking at me, the first time He did it I said to myself I must be mistaking, he doesn't look at me maybe He look at something else" because if the professor saw us looking at something He will yell at us and insult us. The second time He did it I said " why does He doing that, that does not make any sense, but it's okay, he definitely looking at something." 

Then the third time, My heart Starts beating so fast, I lost my focus in the lesson. But thank god the prof didn't ask me any questions. He asked him. And thank god again, I got the chance to see him. Damn how much I missed him. 

The session has end. 

When every session finished, I get out and call my father to Côme pick me, and I wait him away from the classroom's door. 

But this time, I stayed infront of the door Just to see you, to see your eyes. You went out, you are in front of me, My heart beating, My legs getting weak, I looked Strait to your eyes. But you didn't look at me, you saw me yes you saw me standing there, but your eyes were looking for somthing else. But why ??? 

I felt broken, so small, so blue, so angry, so lonely, like there is a fire in my chest. Asking my self" why ? How ? Who ? ". 

I walked in the street thinking, putting scenes together.

And I stopped, I figure it out.

 If I felt crying inside, would that make a difference?، if I scream would that make a difference ? broken heart is all that's left. I taught your Doors were open for me. 

I'm nothing to you, you have no feeling to me. 

 He did not see me me the whole time, When ever I thought he looked at me, She was with me. The other girl. 

why I didn't not see that, I was fool, it was over my head. 

Stupid me. of course He Will look at her, They were in the same class for 2 years. But me, I only knew him for 6 months. 

She always been next to me. 

Why does life treat us like this my heart ?, Did it ask us when she said "live like this"?  

I thought myself I recovered but it looks not. 

Come on my heart. 

Tell them to do not touch my scars, My screams, M'y pain. 

If loves means this, then I gave it up. 

Now I know, loving others is a losing game. 

22 days. 

He is different, I'm different. We Will never be. 

The beautiful thing that ends from the beginning does not start again. 

In my imagination we become together, we loved each other, but we broke up, I lived in your honey ayes, you lived in my blood lips. 

23 days. 

Come on my heart make un effort, Stand still and be patient, Do not bend you head, 

Consider this Just a dream, let the sky remind you that it's okay to feel blue, and I Will keep my pride and I'm saying goodbye. 

24 days

In the end 

We 

As in you and me

Were never 

Meant to be.

It is the ninety-eighth time that I tell myself  I will stop liking  you. But i fond myself  without feeling, searching for you. 

Unknown day. 

I'm just wondering what if i was wrong, about this whole story. 

the part of you not liking me as i do. 

But you know, all of i ever wanted is to kiss you, smell you, hug you, touch you. 

I guss we Will do that in my imagination.