What I Yearned
What I Yearned
IGNIS ENTRY
1: A man cannot be comfortable without his own approval. - Mark Twain
I couldn’t be
Not because I was disgusted
Not because I was introverted
Not because I was not in my right mind
But because I was afraid to show myself
Afraid to be myself
Live like myself
Afraid to fight for myself
Afraid to dishearten those people
I wasn’t living
For I was always grieving
For the lost cause like myself
I was just dreaming
To be someone, not me
For showing those people
Yet the mask shattered
And everyone cackled
For I had become a joke
As the nightmare became real
I hid my face
Ashamed of myself
For their joke portrayed my reality
But they soon forgot me
Left me, dropped me
For I met someone who accepted
My flaws for flaws
My pains for pains
And forgave me for I hadn’t helped him
When he uncovered himself
He thought me
Life can’t be predicted
It is better to uncover oneself
Rather than losing oneself
For the soul can’t be freed
Without one’s mind being free
And a man can’t be in comfort
If he can’t unlock his brain
I have long left behind
That life of mine
For I looked around for comfort
But never searched in the mind
Now I am myself
I do not regret
I have found my freedom
That I yearned from the rest.