Vacant

Vacant is this feeling which lingers and attached itself to me

Like it's eating my tired soul.

Maybe not tired physically but mentally

I want to be free and do what I want to do.

Otherwise, what am I living for just to get my life through

This magical world which doesn't seem so magical.

So if I want to feel this magic again

I have to run away from my existence and make a new one

And change again after this one gets boring.

I want to destroy all these feeling which are inside me right now

As all of my feelings are neither good nor bad

And not even sad they are just shy.

Shy of doing something new. 

Shy of taking a risk,

Shy of myself.

So I wish I could make my present self extinct and recreate