There used to be a time

There used to be a time

There used to be a time

when my heart raced

by your name

when my heart stopped

beating for a 

second here

and a second there

the lights flickered by

the touch of your lips

moon- it shone bright

the sun?

Oh baby

it couldn’t make

my eyes blink even

for a second.

the people around me

wait a minute?

were there people around me?

really?

I didn’t know

at all.

But where were we?

it used to be a time

used to

when you were around

when you and me were we

when there was an us

but now?

Now all your name gives me is

heartache

a pain so vulnerable

so saddening

so yours

a pain I don’t want to feel

never wanted to

but you?

you gave me all this

made me go through heights of the

emotional roller coaster

that you

you promised that

you never will

Today, I was in a room

full of hundreds of people

feeling confident, smiling bright

but the next second came with

your memories

your pictures

and every inch of my heart, mind,

body and soul wrenched in pain