The Time To Loose My Mind...

I'm indulged 

By the bravery around me

I constantly question myself, am I not worthy?

Then I try to look over it, I try to find my worth

But I keep finding myself nearing dead-ends,

I tell myself it's okay not to be perfect

So what?

I'm the best version of myself

But then come days I try to hold on just as tight

Will this nightmare really ever end?

This competition I see not just around me 

But what I see within myself

My personalities try to battle it out

Every day I become a new me

This constant overshadowing that I see

Sometimes I wonder, is it something I really want to achieve?

My hunger for success soon became a desperation to win

And yet again I found myself at another dead-end

I looked around and wondered,

What is it I am missing?

What is it that I'm unable to achieve?

Was I really striving as hard as I thought I was?

How come everyone around me seems so settled?

But then came another voice just as confused as me 

And asked me how I was able to come so far?

That was the moment I realized,

It was an illusion of what I always thought others had so easy,

Maybe we're all striving to find water in a desert,

But are ending up at mirages

And maybe...just maybe

Even those around me...

Had a time to loose their minds...