The Pinpricks Of My Life
The Pinpricks Of My Life
As I sit all alone,
I get thinking once again,
About the irreversible past,
Which forever lasts & lingers ........
Frozen images, vivid & preserved memories ........
Alas, I say to myself for thousandth time,
Maybe I should have,
done this & that then ........
Maybe I shouldn't have,
been like that then ........
Maybe I should have,
responded to "wake up" calls ........
Still I ponder torturously,
All about what I have been through
Still I wonder unbelievably,
Well what happened to me then & why ???
And then I come to a point when,
I see myself living it once again ........
With all the choked emotions,
Of events rushing back ........
The wretched ward room,
The eerie 20' × 10' cubicle,
Where "we" spent those few helpless moments together !
Suddenly I find myself devoid of all feelings,
Devoid of all emotions & pinpricks,
Surprised at my own innocence & ignorance,
Surprised at my seemingly swift recovery !!
I gradually float back to reality,
Ready to face yet again the present world,
So full of drama, plots, and cruelty !!!