The Journey

The rough winding path I walked

Mountains of struggles that made me once or twice turn back

The ocean of tears that sank me into deafening silence

Bogged and clogged with hate and jealousy from my enemies

I saw no light but never did give up

The pain in my heart though painful

Never did I give up on life

Loved ones that gave up on life

I hold in my heart their beautiful memories

I point fingers drowned with anger

But know I can undo what was done

I hate to think of your absence

I hate to think of the clouds of doubts hovering above

Teasing my mind telling me I cannot make it alone

It's like my mind is lost in the deep blue waters of your memories

It hurts so bad

There's not a day I curse the day you left

My mind wanders down memory lane 

I still hold you close to my heart and feel it's crippling me

Why can I not let you go why can I not let you rest

I gaze into the morning sky and plead please God help me let him go

I cannot go on hurting anymore take the wheels of my life

Lead me on into the new year