That One Secret

Prompt theme: Repercussion of restless mind. 

That one secret

Often find myself

Stuck, between 

the crevices of

silent confession,

Tormented by insecurities

And guilted with

grim regression.

Composure of heart,

seized by restive whispers,

soldered with flaming iron

but there's no scars

of blisters.

My journey started

with ifs 

And ended with buts,

rendering me confused.

What to shed tears for?

When love itself

is subdued.

The sheer emptiness

called out to be explored,

Poor innocence was innocent,

When noxious lies

left her abhorred.

Blood runs cold

when her sins

whispered in my ears.

That one secret

rooted deep within,

camouflaged by bleak fear.

Poisoning my self-esteem,

in pursuit of 

true love.

Lost is vague transcendence,

now imbibing tears

isn't enough.

Tears gulped 

by the pillows

And screams caged 

in that torn out diary,

Heart called out 

for mercy

but all she is offered was

Guilt of bribery.

Holding the dingy secret,

I trudged my way

into darkness alone.

With thoughts too 

loud to ignore

and peace long forlorn.

Fighting a battle

with demons in my mind,

trying to rescue 

the peace beneath.

Grave of fireflies

already been dug,

Only thing missing 

is the flower wreath.

Solemn soul 

departing the skin,

craving for an ounce 

of love,

making the poor Earth Eiden

just like heavens above.