Sweet and Sour

Sometimes I feel the cold air brushing my cheeks

Sometimes I am oblivious to the storm around me

How can I see everything and then doesn't see anything at all

Am I living or am I just surviving??

Sometimes I could see the twinkle in those beautiful eyes

Sometimes I am not able to look past the lies

How can I be a good observer and blind at the same time?

Am I living or am I just surviving??

Sometimes I could hear the first drop of rain 

Sometimes I don't care if it's thundering again and again

How can I be so connected to creation and then so ignorant this easily

Am I living or am I just surviving??

But even after all this, I feel I couldn't do the give and take the business of love

The feeling is trapped, emotions unseen, the smile has stopped coming to the face, actions are becoming mean.

So I guess it's just surviving.