Stuck

It's been a long time 

And I'm still stuck

I always think I should move on

But the "move on" word itself pulls me back.

Yes!! There was a strong reason why we called it off

But I got to know my feelings for him were the strongest

 Tried every possible way to move on

 But every time I found myself on the same path 

And still chose not to go back 

There are too many ways to love a person

And I'm gonna choose to be a secret lover

My love for him was not just only about being in a relationship

But was more than he thought

Once I heard "All good things come to an end

Is it was soo good??

Should I be happy that it was good 

Or be sad that it ended??

 I'm not going to be happy again?

I have to relive all the past 

And hold on to every moment 

As long as they last! 

 And sadly I've to accept that it was just a dream 

No matter how good, real it may seem

As I write this, memories flood me 

And then they remind me how we used to be

Everything was good enough then why did we break up?

I never thought this relationship would end,

Our broken hearts I thought we could mend!