Self Love

Back then I lacked self love 

Those days of utter darkness 

Gave me a hefty shove 

Not realizing how I got trapped in madness 

I screamed for a rescue to cure my sadness

In the darkest deepest pit I was lost  

My loneliness desired for love at any cost 

I was desperate for someone's love

Do you know why? 

Because I didn't knew 

Whether the concept of self love was true 

As the days passed by 

In quest of love, I imagined a perfect guy 

Only with a thought of having someone to rely 

At cost of self respect, I gave this quest a try

But it only worsened my condition 

Clearly it was not the right solution

Damn! Again a trap 

But now it was social comparison bias

It seemed as if my fate was giving me a tight slap 

And all negative emotions were yelling -try us, try us ..

You know how everything falls apart

When you are not in your senses 

Even the weakest misery dominates by playing its part 

And day by day your sadness only advances

But out of this blue funk 

You always germinate out as a strong seed

It feels like you are no more drunk 

With a steady gait, you walk on a new path to succeed 

A new journey of self love and exploration

Was adopted to initiate satisfactory transformation

To achieve this -

Firstly I killed every negative virus within me 

And installed antivirus emotions for future protection 

Besides this, something else was also needed to cure me  

Which was- the process of self isolation 

This time I intentionally barged my solitude to blow my mind 

Because Self love has now made my heart so kind 

That no negative people and no fake love can make me blind 

Hey boss - the job full of fake love, false identities, social comparison, violence, listening to your bullshit, living according to your norms and blah blah -----------I have fucking resigned .......