Relapse

The sun is out, 

but I want to sleep and drift away quietly.

The moon laughs behind silver clouds, 

but I weep under these sheets.

My chest hurts, and I can't seem to breathe;

My gut feels like it has knots in it;

My hands and legs are shaking in fear;

My throat is dry, and my lips are bleeding.

I'm terrified and collapsing,

all this anguish and sorrow will burn me,

but I was burning before in your love and 

it never felt painful.

I know you never wished for this,

but I'm in a pathetic state.

Every night I fight for air, shiver to keep warm, and 

unwind the knots in my gut.

I met many strangers, but nothing felt right;

They held me, but I kept falling apart,

I knew in my heart that it never mattered how much I fall apart,

no one will ever put my pieces back together as you did.

You were my destiny, I always knew;

and if this destiny was about being lost, then 

I don't mind being lost in your love.

Our time was brief, but you 

became my favorite feeling that I will remember forever.

And I know nothing will ever feel the same,

so I lay in bed and sing this song 

The sun is out, 

but I want to sleep and drift away quietly.

The moon laughs behind silver clouds, 

but I weep under these sheets.