On The Outside… Looking In…

I’m kneeling here in silence

I look out up to you

Do you see me from where you’re sitting?

Do you see the pain you’re putting me through?

They say you give to all

Only what they can take, no more

But I think there have been some mix-ups

Up there at Heaven’s door

I’m standing here alone

No footprints by my side

I should be thinking I’ve been lifted

But it feels like I’m in concrete that’s dried

No way to turn or push out

No swimming back to shore

A never-ending drowning

That seems to go nowhere

Is this the life that’s planned for me?

I had so much else in mind

Back when I was 21

The world was not unkind

Today, we don’t speak at all

We’re chalk and cheese at best

There was a time in the past

Where all I had to do was ask

Take me back into your arms

Hold me close and favor me

I want to be your gifted child once more

Don’t want to be left knocking at the door…