My Pain Will Engulf Me..
My Pain Will Engulf Me..
There you are again
You hot mess
I have felt your form
With my hands
Tried to stay only
At your edges
For as long as I can
So many times
I've just walked around
To see if I can find a way
Done whatever I can
To just stay away
And then go
Visit the neighbours
Laugh a little
Sing a song
Anything that
Would work
Somedays I put
Clothes on you
Dressed you up
In flowers
Smiled at your
Prettiness
Maybe the hot mess
Will transform this way
The silly me thought
And for sometime
You hid in the corners
But soon you were back
And this time
None of my ideas worked
I couldn't go
To the neighbours
Couldn't find clothes
Or flowers
To cover you up
And then
...ever so slowly
I held my heart
And looked you
Straight in the eye
So sure I'd be soon
Consumed by your flames
But...
Just when I stopped being
Afraid to hold you close
You softened and passed
Through me like a wave
Leaving me lighter
More intact than I ever was
All this while trying to stay away