My Own Fault?!

A heavy punch, a superb blow

My mind is stiff and nearly off

My brain cells must have become slow

Cause' everyone here just scorn and scoff

A casual thing but making me so lost

All it seems like a nasty past

But what I think, matters most

Altogether its a replayed cast

Come on to me I can't lose

A thrifty matter something so crude

Little patience I can't loose

I must deal, being a shrewd

Suddenly I remembered the cause of this revolt

And in the end, it was my own fault?!