Lukewarm Love

One angelic smile and a pair of shiny eyes..

Entered through the front door, gifted my heart demise..

In a matter of days I had lost my heart, and too willingly had shut my mind..

To all his flaws and all his quirks, there sat my vision folded blind..

I fell too deep, he was still somewhere above..

And thus began my story of lukewarm love..

Of unkept promises, unfulfilled dreams..

Of swallowed aches and unheard screams..

Started my days of endless hopes..

Yearning for the simplest of hi's and hello's..

Dwindling his emotions only to please himself..

Summoning me as he needed merely like an elf..

Loving with all my heart, giving him all I had..

Still wondered what is it I did to repel him like that..

For I was always fine, but never enough..

Nothing I did could warm up his lukewarm love..

Beauty is in the eyes of beholder, they say..

And I saw in him the sunshine, worth making my day..

Strangely he never saw so much as even a twinkle..

Forget the fire or the shine, how was he supposed to stay?

For months I cried, tried to lure him with baits..

Fought all in vain to reverse the curse on my fate..

Till one day when I realized it was not a curse at all..

Rather a boon life had bestowed to save me from the fall..

To save me from a fate that I did not deserve..

Life had a plan greater, grander for me to serve..

It didn't happen for it was not meant to be...

For a reason I knew when I started to clearly see..

A love that made you smile much less than it made you cry..

A love as restricted was not worth a try..

It's supposed to be eternal, awaiting you with open arms..

Not making you crave for every ounce of love, and making your heart prone to greatest of harm..

It's not worth facing the rain for months at a go..

When it brings only a single day when the sun is up on show..

So I chose me, my happiness, a life I wanted to live..

Not something that brought self doubt or endless amount of grief..

And I lived a life my own hands shaped..

Until true love volunteered itself, knocking at my doorstep.